For the first time

For the first time in my life, I have experienced so many failures at once.

For the first time in my life, I have experienced I am at financial crisis and need to be very careful with my expenses.

Hahaha... I think I have gone crazy -.-"

-Interesting First Time-

Up and Down

I have an interesting life which fluctuate like Australia's weather.

-Interesting but tiring-

Dine-Out

Recently I haven been going out with friends quite often. Today went for dinner with high school friends, we kinda know each others but never be in the same class before. I always think that these people are extremely smart. They are all from "smart" class with excellent results!

Thank you to Australia's education for bringing us together. The reason I have the chance to meet up with them is not because of my academic presentation, is because my parents have the ability to sponsor me financially to study in this expensive country.

In a table of four, we are from different professional field. We got one accountant, one lawyer, one graphic designer, one dietitian. Probably just lacking an engineer?
In a table of four, we have different characteristics. One mature, one very unique, one quiet but knows a lot of gossip, one noisy.

I am starting to get to use to eating in a table with friends. This is a big improvement for me, as it is really hard for me to eat out in a social setting bcoz of my mild eating disorder before. Everytime dine-out with friends I really need lots of courage to do so. Able to go out without thinking too much is not easy, but I made it!

-Interesting dinner.-

Australia Day

The day start with the noisy teenagers smoking in the train and ruthless detruction to the poor train. Follow by a quite day in Pharmacy, which is usually the case during holiday. The weather starting to get hotter and hotter. My head is pain, my stomach is in pain too.

Take-away sushi for dinner and quickly ran back for shower. Rang up Tan Tock Seng Hospital, the Nutritin Department manager refuse to speak to me and transfer my call to HR. HR doesn't know what is going on. Finally, I decided to give up. I think I am too much. I am creating too much burden and troublesome for them. Sent an email to HR and decide to stop follow up.

Went off to city to meet with Alex, collected my letter and a special Australia Day's gift from somebody. On the way to the restaurant, I was lost in the city, walking up and down under the hot weather. Tired.

Before heading home, went to shopping centre for grocery, bought fruits, veg, meat, bread. On the way home, meet some local yelling at me. Ignore them.

Bek home 10pm, late. Sweat. Tired. Let's hope I can sleep well today.

-The end-

Dear Sheau,

Thank you for your interest in Tan Tock Seng Hospital and for attending the job interview. We are certainly impressed with the work credentials and experience that you could offer to Tan Tock Seng Hospital. Having carefully reviewed your application along with other candidates and our hospital’s requirements for this position, we regret to inform you that you have not been successful. We would like to take this opportunity to wish you all the best in your future endeavours. Once again, thank you for your interest.

HR Management Tan Tock Seng Hospital

----------------------------------------------------------------------------------

I had a nightmare about this today and it came true. I knew it from the beginning. But is so difficult to face it. I always wanted to think that this failure is for better opportunity in the future. But I know this is just a lie to myself. I am trying hard not to be pessimistic. No matter how many books I read to encourage me to stand up, no matter how my relatives and friends trying to comfort, no matter how I tried hard to understand the situation. But all these doesn't work, my hand trembling, my heart is breaking, my tears falling. The more I hope for, the more it hurts.

I wanted to call and question for some feedbacks from the interview panel. I wanted to know how I can improve. But I need to recover and face from my failure before I have the courage to call them again.

The last day in Msia, the end of my hope. Is time for a new goal, when I am ready.

Life still going on

This time seems to be the busiest home trip. I have my IELTS, interview in Singapore, Police Check, Police report of lost Identification card etc. I have no time with friends. No time for travelling. But I get all my things done, which make me feel satisfy. The progress is annoying but the outcome is good. :)

Plenty of things happening too, things that associated with me, things that associated with me in someway and things that not so much associated with me but still affected people surrounding me.

Things that associated with me:
1) My dad's car got accident
2) My bro's expensive watch lost
3) My sis is stressing out with her coursework which I can only providing her mental support
4) My mum is busy with packaging "sweet" work which I helped out a bit
5) My elder bro sent a big camera which I cannot understand how to function it as it is written in Jap
6) My uncle in Pinang was diagnosed with liver disease
7) My grandma almost admitted to hospital due to weakness


Things that somehow and somewhat associated or not associated with me:
1) Malaysia news is new everyday
- First, boom church news
- Second, Haiti's earthquake
- Third, Pinang Chong Ling High School (my dad's ex-school) 6 students past away in sea during dragon boat training (one of them is my far relatives). They are just 16-17 years old.
- Forth, the world weather has been terrible, under 0 degree celcius, cold freezing, snow at China, UK etc. My sis is gonna be the next snow man there ><
- Fifth, 3 years old girl was dancing happily following the TV dance and accidentaly she tripped on the wire, she crushed to death by TV.

All these Nature disaster? I don't know, I just bless for the peace everyday every morning.


What I have done so far in Malaysia?
1) We as a family went to Ipoh just for lunch, can you believe it?
2) We as a family went to watch Avatar (yes, my second time watching it) After watching it, so many news about Avatar. Bad news from the society, but good news for the director. In Singapore, there is a girl with depression commit suicide coz she believes after her death she can go to Pandora which is the "magic" place in the movie. In Taiwan (i tink), there is a guy went to watch 3D of Avatar, and he got stroke coz of what? that is a mystery. Ppl said that is becoz he couldnt take it, the 3D effect. However, it is not recommended for ppl with cardiovascular prob to experience these kinda shocking thingy. Well, the good news for the movie is Avatar won many prizes for best movie, best visual audio effect etc.
3) I cut my hair (hairstyle = unbalance short) if and only if you can understand :D
4) I attended a few dance classes (modern jazz, new jazz, kickboxing, hatha yoga) was fun overall.
5) I watched and modified my sis's "fllymas.mobi" contest's youtube. She is a great hip hop dancer. If I got a dance studio, I will definitely employ her.
6) I bought new pairs of spec, digital calculator watch, formal office shirt, self-enrichment books

Days back in Msia

Life has been busy as usual. Well, finally I got a break from today. I came back to Msia on New Year 1st Jan 2010. How I celebrate New Year? Did I go out to watch fireworks? Nope, not interested. Don't want to stay in crowded place as well. Sometimes I do think I am very old, in fact I am living the elderly way.

Since I came back to Msia, I prepared and went to Singapore for a job interview, the outcome is unknown yet. But it seems very unlikely, because usually they will response straight away but this time, they said they will contact me in 2 weeks time. So, just wait.

- Singapore hospital is like shopping centre, hmm... maybe hotel? is clean, grand =)
- this is my honey moon trip with my mum. My mum visited Changi airport's library (noticed the London, Tokyo, and Sydney's time in a row on the wall)
- Air Asia flight is very small but their flight attendants' breasts are very big

Today I finally finished my IELTS exam after studied for one week's workshop. Hopefully I dont have to sit anymore! This is my third time taking IELTS, not that I failed but expired. Anyway, the result will release on the day I am heading back to Sydney. So, again just wait.

After exam, ah ba brought me and ah ma to Secret Recipe for LUNCH =.= (yes, tat s how my family enjoy life, just go as they wish)

- ah ba and ah ma choosing their cake with their butts stick out :P
- secret recipe cheesecake the best, not tiramisu >< this is banana choc cake

Life is just wait and relax. I have done whatever I can, leave the rest to the God. =)