-The end-

Dear Sheau,

Thank you for your interest in Tan Tock Seng Hospital and for attending the job interview. We are certainly impressed with the work credentials and experience that you could offer to Tan Tock Seng Hospital. Having carefully reviewed your application along with other candidates and our hospital’s requirements for this position, we regret to inform you that you have not been successful. We would like to take this opportunity to wish you all the best in your future endeavours. Once again, thank you for your interest.

HR Management Tan Tock Seng Hospital

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I had a nightmare about this today and it came true. I knew it from the beginning. But is so difficult to face it. I always wanted to think that this failure is for better opportunity in the future. But I know this is just a lie to myself. I am trying hard not to be pessimistic. No matter how many books I read to encourage me to stand up, no matter how my relatives and friends trying to comfort, no matter how I tried hard to understand the situation. But all these doesn't work, my hand trembling, my heart is breaking, my tears falling. The more I hope for, the more it hurts.

I wanted to call and question for some feedbacks from the interview panel. I wanted to know how I can improve. But I need to recover and face from my failure before I have the courage to call them again.

The last day in Msia, the end of my hope. Is time for a new goal, when I am ready.

Life still going on

This time seems to be the busiest home trip. I have my IELTS, interview in Singapore, Police Check, Police report of lost Identification card etc. I have no time with friends. No time for travelling. But I get all my things done, which make me feel satisfy. The progress is annoying but the outcome is good. :)

Plenty of things happening too, things that associated with me, things that associated with me in someway and things that not so much associated with me but still affected people surrounding me.

Things that associated with me:
1) My dad's car got accident
2) My bro's expensive watch lost
3) My sis is stressing out with her coursework which I can only providing her mental support
4) My mum is busy with packaging "sweet" work which I helped out a bit
5) My elder bro sent a big camera which I cannot understand how to function it as it is written in Jap
6) My uncle in Pinang was diagnosed with liver disease
7) My grandma almost admitted to hospital due to weakness


Things that somehow and somewhat associated or not associated with me:
1) Malaysia news is new everyday
- First, boom church news
- Second, Haiti's earthquake
- Third, Pinang Chong Ling High School (my dad's ex-school) 6 students past away in sea during dragon boat training (one of them is my far relatives). They are just 16-17 years old.
- Forth, the world weather has been terrible, under 0 degree celcius, cold freezing, snow at China, UK etc. My sis is gonna be the next snow man there ><
- Fifth, 3 years old girl was dancing happily following the TV dance and accidentaly she tripped on the wire, she crushed to death by TV.

All these Nature disaster? I don't know, I just bless for the peace everyday every morning.


What I have done so far in Malaysia?
1) We as a family went to Ipoh just for lunch, can you believe it?
2) We as a family went to watch Avatar (yes, my second time watching it) After watching it, so many news about Avatar. Bad news from the society, but good news for the director. In Singapore, there is a girl with depression commit suicide coz she believes after her death she can go to Pandora which is the "magic" place in the movie. In Taiwan (i tink), there is a guy went to watch 3D of Avatar, and he got stroke coz of what? that is a mystery. Ppl said that is becoz he couldnt take it, the 3D effect. However, it is not recommended for ppl with cardiovascular prob to experience these kinda shocking thingy. Well, the good news for the movie is Avatar won many prizes for best movie, best visual audio effect etc.
3) I cut my hair (hairstyle = unbalance short) if and only if you can understand :D
4) I attended a few dance classes (modern jazz, new jazz, kickboxing, hatha yoga) was fun overall.
5) I watched and modified my sis's "fllymas.mobi" contest's youtube. She is a great hip hop dancer. If I got a dance studio, I will definitely employ her.
6) I bought new pairs of spec, digital calculator watch, formal office shirt, self-enrichment books

Days back in Msia

Life has been busy as usual. Well, finally I got a break from today. I came back to Msia on New Year 1st Jan 2010. How I celebrate New Year? Did I go out to watch fireworks? Nope, not interested. Don't want to stay in crowded place as well. Sometimes I do think I am very old, in fact I am living the elderly way.

Since I came back to Msia, I prepared and went to Singapore for a job interview, the outcome is unknown yet. But it seems very unlikely, because usually they will response straight away but this time, they said they will contact me in 2 weeks time. So, just wait.

- Singapore hospital is like shopping centre, hmm... maybe hotel? is clean, grand =)
- this is my honey moon trip with my mum. My mum visited Changi airport's library (noticed the London, Tokyo, and Sydney's time in a row on the wall)
- Air Asia flight is very small but their flight attendants' breasts are very big

Today I finally finished my IELTS exam after studied for one week's workshop. Hopefully I dont have to sit anymore! This is my third time taking IELTS, not that I failed but expired. Anyway, the result will release on the day I am heading back to Sydney. So, again just wait.

After exam, ah ba brought me and ah ma to Secret Recipe for LUNCH =.= (yes, tat s how my family enjoy life, just go as they wish)

- ah ba and ah ma choosing their cake with their butts stick out :P
- secret recipe cheesecake the best, not tiramisu >< this is banana choc cake

Life is just wait and relax. I have done whatever I can, leave the rest to the God. =)

Plenty of things going on

1) Last week I got an old male customer came into the pharmacy and he said he doesn't know how to go back home. He said he went out for Yum Cha himself, he said his wife doesn't want to go, and nobody at home, so he go by himself. The Yum Cha restaurant actually is walking distance from his house. Anyway, after Yum Cha, don't know why he went on to the bus and he suddenly don't know where he is going and he somehow stopped at the bus stop in front of our pharmacy and recognised the old name "Wu's Pharmacy" then he came in. Actually, I just came back from lunch and I saw him walking outside our pharmacy as if he is loss, and fortunately he came in. Because my boss has a extremely good memory, she can remember all her customers' name simply by looking at their face. Anyway, he told both my boss that he don't know how to go home. My boss was so kind and found the address for him but worried he doesn't know what to do with the address so she rang the old man's daughter (luckily we got their contact number). The daughter said she couldnt come coz she is at work. She rang her mum and said her mum will come and pick him up.
- First, I was very shock when the daughter said she couldn't come. But I think back myself, if I am at work, and I received such phone call, would I be able to put down whatever I am doing and rush back? Is that consider caring? Or is that considered irrational?
- Second, I am always impress with my boss, their caring and patience. I really need to work more on showing concern, sincerity, and patience with everybody. I am too impatience. I don't think I will manage his case so well. I would probably missed him. I feel really bad about myself just by thinking about my attitude.
- Third, the story ended with happily ever after. His wife came and his daughter rang to make sure everything is alright. Luckily he didn't end up in the front page of newspaper looking for him.

2) I got a job interview in Tan Tock Seng Hospital, Singapore as a dietitian. It is very exciting~! to be honest, is much exciting than my previous interview =P I am very much looking forward to it! Really hope I will get it! Is my dream job!!!! >.<"
- I am going back as a result, on 1st Jan - 21st Jan. and hopefully I will go back again to work in this Singapore well known hospital~! =)

3) I gotta write my resume~!!! I have been very slack and delayed my application! (Oh well, I will work it out tomorrow when I only work for half day)

4) I went to play badminton with frenz. It really took me a lot of courage to go for the game. Because they are too good and I am just interrupting their practice. Sorry guys =P But I had fun! I laugh a lot, a real laugh =D

5) I finished a very nice Korean series that I addicted to ~ You're beautiful OR A.N.Jell ~ I knew the second part of this show will definitely come out because the response from audience was great!

Mistake

Please don't let me make any mistake anymore, please. I really don't want to get yelled and cause all the trouble to my employers and the customers.

Financial

Today received my weekly salary cheque.
Doesn't feel excited at all.
Money suddenly doesn't mean anything to me anymore.
Money no longer bring me any happiness.

Weird.

The good thing is, my life is not driven by money.

Addicted

For some reasons, I m addicted to this korean series. -A.N.Jell-
Thank godness, with this show, I get to relieve a bit from my tough life.


I don't know what I was talking about during the interview. I was so nervous at the interview. Why is job application so difficult? I don't feel good with the interview. I try to convince myself, is all over. I couldnt do anything now. But things always doesn't go as u wish. Yes, the interview session bother me a lot. Being interview by the people you know, is weird. I shouldn't have apply for the job. I am not capable, why I want to force other to say I am possible? Anyway, went to work and gym after the interview.

Today got yelled by both my employers in the pharmacy. Because I did the cashier wrongly and I threw the receipt away accidentally. I didn't have my lunch till 2pm. My blood sugar is running low, I knew I couldn't focus. I was quite down after the scolding part. Sigh.

Job application is difficult, working is difficult. Wait, why am I complaining?

Thank Godness, I got another entertainment, the korean series which allow me to forget these things temporary and leave me alone from the tough life.

Can I have my life simplern easier?