Can u understand my English?

At work, nobody can understand my English. Most of the time, I just hand in the end result, they didn't know how I get thru the process. They didn't understand the way I explain it or what I am talking about.

At work, I cannot understand people English. I don't know what they talking about (at tea time or in a meeting). At tea time, I don't know why they laughing after a conversation. In a case study meeting, I don't know what they discussing about the treatment.

At uni, when I say stg to the class. The conversation doesn't last for long. Probably after I said it, then people just tok about other stuff or remained silence.

At uni, when ppl in a conversation. talking, laughin, being serious, being humour. Most of the time, I dont know what they are talking about. and I don't know how to join their conversation. I just follow the person's face or sensory expression.

At home, my family cannot understand my English. Saying that my English is too good trying to console me (Whilst the truth is actually my English is too poor and nobody can understand it. Just like what happen at work). They don't know what I am trying to express and what are my key msg.

At home, I cannot understand my family's conversation. I don't know what they are trying to say or express. Is so confusing. And I don't know what to reply them.

At date, he doesnt know what I am talking about and I don't know what he is saying. There is no mutual amongst our conversation. There is no common language going on.

Tell me, my communication is shit.

I hate the feeling of not being able to pass my msg thru. I hate the feeling of not being able to understand what people trying to say and I jz act as if I know. I hate the feeling of people doesn't want to talk to me, knowing that I don't know what they are talking about or just doesn't want to join me in the conversation. I hate being ignored and ignoring people.

Alright, enough of complain. Let's move on.