Who knows?
This morning I woke up and the first question came to me is, What is the purpose of my life?
Then the questions keep flowing thru me: What am I doing? Where am I going? Why am I doing this? Am I satisfy or happy with my current life?
Well, when I am questioning "Am I satisfy or happy with my current life?" which means I am definitely not. Even though I know that life is not perfect. I experienced the worst time where I had to go thru all the medical + mental issue. At that time, I wish my life could be simplier. Now, I am having a simple of nothing much. Nothing much happened in a day: no pain and no gain. No sadness, no happiness. My emotion is just like a blank paper.
So, WHAT I WANT?
Ever since the day I left home, I know there is no way back. Pls don't question me why do I choose the difficult road. Or is there a easy way?
Ideal life V.S. Real life
What is a normal life? Am I having a normal life?
Too many question without an answer.
Make it worse.
Anyway, I think a life with "no pain and no gain" is working fine with me now. I know, when I found happiness, sadness is followed at the back very closely. Oh well, "no emotion", I guess is the best.
Thank you for reading. Sorry for all the miserable sentences and questions.
I think I found what I after, maybe?
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It's good to know that you really care for what you want for life, that shows you are someone with direction..
ReplyDeleteAs I always like to quote the idiom that sounds - " there's light at the end of every tunnel", never get discourage of what we may encounter, be it a very worst case and darkest period on earth, think it this way, unpleasant events will surely follow by good things...if there's problem there will be solutions..
Life is truly filled with many uncertainties, we really can't expect things turn up just the way we want it to be, that's reality, that each and everyone of us have to know...
Red bean Kang, how about we see it from another way, we should feel blessed for what we're today, content is the word.. There's so many things that human being can pursue of, be it riches, fame or status, but another fact arises - all of these are simply temporarily..
Life's just once, Why let all these pull us back while we can live cheerful life that start with contentment? Diverged roads are inevitable in life journey, but it's still our choice who we choose to be :)
And there's a blog of an uncle of mine which I think it's quite thoughtful and motivating for youth just like us, feel free to visit - http://wwwneeyongblog.blogspot.com/
All is well :)