Graduation

Recently there are plenty of my high school mates graduation ceremonies going on back in Malaysia. And it just remind me that I will be finishing my course in ~13 weeks. Shocking?!

Another new pathway is waiting for me. What I am gonna be? What I wanna be? Where am I going? Today went back to Uni for one whole day seminar. There are a few lecturers talk about how to promote yourself. As we are going to graduate soon, looking for a job is certainly the next step. Well, that s my next step, not sure about others. (Never assume, never judge! I always forget about this rule)

Anyway, all the lectures were interesting, useful, and interactive. One of the lecturer was very young but very "pro". She impressed me. She said she went thru a lot to get to where she wants to be now. But who don't go thru shit? Anyway, she asked a very interesting question, "Are you looking for a job or a career?" It doesn't sound different to me at the first place. She added, "A job is just a job, a career is what you want to be and what you can continue for long term." Then, she asked "What you want to be in 5 years? What you want to achieve?" Again, this question gives a deep thought.
- > If you ask me this question a year before, I will answer, "continue with my study till I graduate. Any further than graduate, don't talk about it first, stay focus and get my master course complete." To me, it is just not practical to talk about what is gonna happen in 5 years when you don't even know what is gonna happen tomorrow.
- > If you ask me this question a week ago, I will answer, "wherever I can get a job with salary, that would be excellent!" I can hardly have any complain if I have a job, if I got a job in dietitian field, FABULOUS! I think that would be the "gold" from the sky fall in front of me. and Thank Godness! To me, doesn't matter which field you work in. Doesn't matter whether you get a dietitian job, you will get to learn something and build your CV no matter where you go.
- > Today, if you ask me the question again, I will say, "I don't know" And I am unsatisfy with this answer, of course. There is a contradictory in my mind and I don't like that. On one side of me saying "is ok, just continue with you pharmacy assistant job for the time being, at least you got a full time salary. And then you slowly find a job in dietitian area". On the other side of me saying, "are you gonna be a pharmacy assistant for the rest of your life. Or are you just going to satisfy with your dietitian job, if you get one?"

But she did make a good point. If you didn't plan what you want to be in 5 years, then where are you heading? Is like sailing in the middle of ocean, without the knowing where is the edge, without any control of where to go, and just let the wind blow to wherever it feels like.

Where I want to go? What I want to be? What I like about dietitian? Which part of dietitian? Which areas I want to specialist in? Why I want to be a dietitian? Why I like that specific area/field of dietetics? Do I just want to be a normal dietitian for the rest of my life?

I always get frustrated when people ask me about me.
-> Can you tell me about yourself? (Especially in Facebook and Friendster. There is a section of "About me" that I never know how to answer.)
-> Can you tell me what are your strengths and weakness?
-> Can you tell me what makes you different from others?

So, is time to get some deep tot going on before I got chuck into the middle of ocean.