Plenty of things going on

1) Last week I got an old male customer came into the pharmacy and he said he doesn't know how to go back home. He said he went out for Yum Cha himself, he said his wife doesn't want to go, and nobody at home, so he go by himself. The Yum Cha restaurant actually is walking distance from his house. Anyway, after Yum Cha, don't know why he went on to the bus and he suddenly don't know where he is going and he somehow stopped at the bus stop in front of our pharmacy and recognised the old name "Wu's Pharmacy" then he came in. Actually, I just came back from lunch and I saw him walking outside our pharmacy as if he is loss, and fortunately he came in. Because my boss has a extremely good memory, she can remember all her customers' name simply by looking at their face. Anyway, he told both my boss that he don't know how to go home. My boss was so kind and found the address for him but worried he doesn't know what to do with the address so she rang the old man's daughter (luckily we got their contact number). The daughter said she couldnt come coz she is at work. She rang her mum and said her mum will come and pick him up.
- First, I was very shock when the daughter said she couldn't come. But I think back myself, if I am at work, and I received such phone call, would I be able to put down whatever I am doing and rush back? Is that consider caring? Or is that considered irrational?
- Second, I am always impress with my boss, their caring and patience. I really need to work more on showing concern, sincerity, and patience with everybody. I am too impatience. I don't think I will manage his case so well. I would probably missed him. I feel really bad about myself just by thinking about my attitude.
- Third, the story ended with happily ever after. His wife came and his daughter rang to make sure everything is alright. Luckily he didn't end up in the front page of newspaper looking for him.

2) I got a job interview in Tan Tock Seng Hospital, Singapore as a dietitian. It is very exciting~! to be honest, is much exciting than my previous interview =P I am very much looking forward to it! Really hope I will get it! Is my dream job!!!! >.<"
- I am going back as a result, on 1st Jan - 21st Jan. and hopefully I will go back again to work in this Singapore well known hospital~! =)

3) I gotta write my resume~!!! I have been very slack and delayed my application! (Oh well, I will work it out tomorrow when I only work for half day)

4) I went to play badminton with frenz. It really took me a lot of courage to go for the game. Because they are too good and I am just interrupting their practice. Sorry guys =P But I had fun! I laugh a lot, a real laugh =D

5) I finished a very nice Korean series that I addicted to ~ You're beautiful OR A.N.Jell ~ I knew the second part of this show will definitely come out because the response from audience was great!

Mistake

Please don't let me make any mistake anymore, please. I really don't want to get yelled and cause all the trouble to my employers and the customers.

Financial

Today received my weekly salary cheque.
Doesn't feel excited at all.
Money suddenly doesn't mean anything to me anymore.
Money no longer bring me any happiness.

Weird.

The good thing is, my life is not driven by money.

Addicted

For some reasons, I m addicted to this korean series. -A.N.Jell-
Thank godness, with this show, I get to relieve a bit from my tough life.


I don't know what I was talking about during the interview. I was so nervous at the interview. Why is job application so difficult? I don't feel good with the interview. I try to convince myself, is all over. I couldnt do anything now. But things always doesn't go as u wish. Yes, the interview session bother me a lot. Being interview by the people you know, is weird. I shouldn't have apply for the job. I am not capable, why I want to force other to say I am possible? Anyway, went to work and gym after the interview.

Today got yelled by both my employers in the pharmacy. Because I did the cashier wrongly and I threw the receipt away accidentally. I didn't have my lunch till 2pm. My blood sugar is running low, I knew I couldn't focus. I was quite down after the scolding part. Sigh.

Job application is difficult, working is difficult. Wait, why am I complaining?

Thank Godness, I got another entertainment, the korean series which allow me to forget these things temporary and leave me alone from the tough life.

Can I have my life simplern easier?

I met "special guest"

http://www.lovemission.com.hk/bio.html

If you walked through Sydney Chinese people area such as China Town and the suburb I live (Burwood), you will see lots of poster along the street about Chinese stars or Chinese performances in Sydney. One of the poster that was posted everywhere for quite sometimes alre, is the one showed on top.

Today as usual, I worked in the Pharmacy except the date is pretty- triple 1 (1st of Nov). Anyway, tis morning when not many people in the city yet, there are some customers come in as usual. Then I suddenly realised this group of people, are actually the people on the poster @_@ COOL~

I serve them as usual, I talked about it to the pharmacist after they left. I never tot that I will get to see media people in my life and never tot tat I will get to serve them! -.- This Sunday is very special =)

Before I ever met any media people, I always tot, they are just ordinary people except that their job is in front of public and media. But after I met them in 3D not in front of a 2D poster, is kinda exciting =P

This time their trip to Australia is some Christian concert for donation purposes. Well, I m buddhist, O Mi To Fo.

Childhood Obesity

Assuming childhood obesity is a gun.

If GENETIC is the bullet that load the gun, then the ENVIRONMENT we are staying now is the action that fire the gun.

Companion

Today I was waiting for the train as usual but experience unusual thing. A lonely elderly Chinese woman came to me and speak Cantonese asking me whether the train going to “Flemington” (she can’t pronounce properly and initially I can’t understand what she said). I keep saying “Hah? Sorry?” I wasn’t sure what she is trying to say. Then she walked away silently. I looked at the sight of her disappointed back. I raised my voice in Cantonese and stopped her: “请问你说什么?” She turned back happily and with hope (I almost can see her “bright” star in her eyes.)

Usually, I don’t response to people talk to me randomly on the road. I don’t look at people on the road. So, often I don’t recognize any of my friends on the road. Today while I was on my way back from gym, I heard “Did you just came back from gym?” I walked away as usual. He repeated “Did you just came back from gym?” I looked back and nodded with “yes”. He is like my dad’s age, I don’t know him, but I saw him several times in the gym. He was very happy after hearing my response and we chatted awhile before he headed to gym and before I continue my journey back home.

So, what is all these about?

I came to a conclusion, I will go back to stay with my parents in the future. I need companion.

漫长的夜晚

Silent night. I was staying outside the house all by myself. The weather was good till I got back home realizing I forgot to bring my keys. It started to rain. Under the cold, quite night, nobody at home. It was 10 p.m. I haven’t sit down since I left home to work at 11 a.m. I was exhausted.

I contacted my housemates and told me they are at friends’ place and will not be back. I rang my landlord but he said he couldn’t come at this late because he was sick after cleaning up our house and toilet today (he is just hinting that I haven’t been cleaning up the toilet for ages). Anyway, fair enough. I never expect him to come over at this late. At 12:30am, I sms another housemate see whether he is coming back and he rang me back tell me “I am sorry I can’t come back at this time. But I will be back at 1:30am. I am just at the pub with friends now.” Of course, I said that s fine, I didn’t ask him to come back immediately. I just want to know whether I should continue to wait. So, I said if he is coming back at 1:30 den I will wait. Luckily I ring the next door bell, someone open the apartment door for me. So, instead of waiting outside the building. I am now in the building in front of the door. I can’t stand anymore. I lie down on the corridor outside my apartment. It was dirty and cold corridor but I don’t have the energy to stand and can’t be bother anymore.

The time past very slowly. I have to say, this is the first time I forgot to bring my keys with me. Am I too lucky? To have this situation when is late in the night, raining, and the day when nobody at home. While I was lying down with my bag as my pillow. I can suddenly understand the feeling of 流浪汉 that I walked pass just now in the city. I can suddenly feel his loneliness, his cold. The feeling of nowhere to go at this time. The feeling of no one to ask for help. The feeling of no one to contact for accompany. Is pathetic. I have been here for two years but this is as if I just arrive today and knowing nothing about this place and the people.

The house is so close and yet so far.

I don’t have the energy to jump around to warm myself up. I continue to scroll myself like a snail. On top of that, 6 out of 10 of my fingers are bleeding and painful due to the dryness.

Somehow, I managed to keep myself in good condition (mentally) until 1:30am. I waited and waited he didn’t come back. It was 1:45am, I wonder why he is not back yet. Mum ask me to call him. But I didn’t because is not his responsibility to come back. Is my fault that I didn’t bring the keys. I have got no right to stop his “entertainment” just because of my irresponsibility. Hated ‘empty promises’ but couldn’t do anything with it.

This situation suddenly bring up part of my memory that was hidden and buried somewhere in my brain.

Another ordinary night where my dad is not back home. Mum rang and He said: “迟一点就回”. So, mum and kids were waiting in front of the TV. It was 12am. Time to sleep. Dad is not back yet. We all know where he is. Mum rang again, the background noise was significant. No doubt, he is at the same old place, pub and alcohol. The same old dialogue repeated. I can feel mum’s heart is tearing and the feeling of helpless. She eventually ‘beg’ me to call dad to come back. She knows if the kids call, might make a different. Dad might be back. But my coldness ignored my mum. I didn’t call and never call, I know even if I call, my dad came back, he wouldn’t be happy. I just let him do what ever he wants because I got no control of his life. I got no right to control what he wants to do. I am able to survive till today is because of his financial support. Taking his money plus controlling his life? Don’t you think you are too over boarded, Sheau Kang?

I have I got no right to take away his “leisure” because it was all my fault. I FAIL completely as a daughter to give him the feeling of family warmth. Eventually, he has to search outside for it. If you couldn’t give what the person want, and you doesn’t the person to look for what he/she wants? Don’t you think you are too ridiculous, Tan Sheau Kang?

For some reasons, my tears start pouring. I know I can’t stand anymore, physically and mentally. It was 2 a.m. My mum, my sister rang. I couldn’t talk. I don’t know what I am talking, I don’t know what they are saying, I wonder what am I doing? Every times my mental break down, I forgot why am I living. I lost my meaning of life/surviving.

At this hopeless night, I wonder what am I going to do? Where should I go? I was terribly cold and fatigue. My eyes swollen red from the tears. 3am. Someone came back and open the door. Supposedly I should be joyful as I can get into the apartment finally. But I feel nothing. After I said to the flatmate softly “Thank you.”

I went to bathroom and wash away all the germs and dirt. In the pharmacy, most of them are sick. I carried all the germs whole day, I just couldn’t stand it. What if I catch it? I finally got into bed at 4am. Surprisingly, I didn’t wake up in the middle of the night (usually I wake up a few times in the night) till my alarm rang and is time to work again at 8am.

The day started again but the memory is still fresh. I acted everything was alright the next day but deep in my heart, it was ‘frozen’ and everything seems to be meaningless after that night.

-Communication-

Recently I have been thinking. Do I have close friends? Why do I feel lonely sometimes? Why I feel my life is kinda empty sometimes? When people ask me, what do you usually do? My answer has always been short and simple. Work + Gym + Internet. So, how often you go out with friends? What about your bf?

Yesterday I went out with friends, I have to say, within these two years in Sydney, I can actually count the number of time I go out with friends in Sydney using my 10 fingers + 10 toes. Pathetic? I think is not pathetic, it serve me right. This is because I am not caring enough to my friends. This is because I am not sharing my feeling, my thought with friends. This is because I don’t know how to communicate with friends.

People send regards messages to friends who are sick, people send all the best messages to friends who are leaving, people send congratulation messages to friends who are getting married, birthday, graduation, babies etc. But lets think about this, how many times I have actually send a regard to one of my friends?

People talk about their problem with close friends. But have I ever talk to anybody thoughtfully? Yes, I always complain, to everyone. So, I guess I should ask, has anybody actually discuss their thought, and share their problem with me? No, not really. I do have friends that might talk through with me about their life once in awhile. But honestly, is there anybody that actually regularly chat, hang out together with me? Nope. Certainly not. Is that because I am too busy? Is that because I stay in a place where nobody stay? Is it because I lazy to go out at night? Is it because I just don’t want to go out? To be honest, I really think is my issue.

Yesterday dinner was great. I enjoy the time with Charmaine and Jenny. They are very open, friendly, humor, and nice to me. They accept me as their friends, they invite me out, they go out with me, they talk to me, they wanted to know more about me etc. The time they willing to spend with me really make me feel very good and accepted. But I don’t think I know how to express myself well. I went back and I keep thinking the words I say might be offensive but I wasn’t aware. I don’t know how to talk in a “normal” way like how friends talk.

Is true what my elder bro said to me when I was young, “one day, you will get beat up by somebody because of the way you say things! You know, you never use brain when you talk!”

Internet D.E.A.D

Dear All,

I would like to formally informed the whole world that my internet connection at 17 Burwood Road, Burwood 2134 NSW (fake address, pls do not send anything to this address) has DEAD. This has put me into unfavourable and inconvenient situation when I am writing up the final part of my report and I need ENTERTAINMENT in between.

However, I would like to send my sincere apologies for anybody who looking for me or looking forward to read my blog desperately and couldn't find any updates from me. (Although I knew nobody will care whether I update it or not)

Kind regards,
Sheau

Night Mare- The Day After Tomorrow

For some reasons, the whole night, I couldn't sleep. Not because I was hot and definitely not because I was cold. Wind blow strongly, my door slaming. The sound of the wind was annoying. Usually, my sleep will not affected by the environment or sound. Nothing can wake me up (including fire alarm).

The whole night, I was turning here and there. I don't dare to look at the time coz I will get nervous which will make my sleep worst. I don't know the time, the moment I open my eyes, outside were all red! not blue, not dark but RED. is very very red, like sunset (or worst). I tot it will go away gradually, I tot it was my illusion, I tot is just me.

I continue with my rolling, like sushi. I don't how long after I rolling around, I heard my alarm which indicates is 7am. I woke up (well, I alre wake up is just I did not open my eyes). I looked outside, is still RED!!! I tot is illusion again, I snooze my alarm and lie back on my bed. Another 5 minutes later, I heard my alarm. Gosh, is still RED! I wake up calmly. I did my regular routine. The surrounding is extraordinary quite, as if I am the only person in this universe. I can hear the wind blowing strongly. I can see the redness like in the middle of dessert. I can feel the dust blow on to my face.

Suddenly, it came up to my mind, "Am I dead?" Is this another world? But why I manage to turn off my alarm? Why I manage to brush my teeths? Why I am still able to eat breakfast? Why my neighbour still can see me and talk to me?

Is this the world when people die come to? (Seriously, this is really what I tot when I was up this morning) I was thinking, when people die, they still can do what they normally do? They still can communicate with the people? is just that they are in another world??

I walked under the red sky, as if something was burning but the weather was cold. All the dust blowing on to me, smell disgusting. It suddenly remind me a news that I read yesterday saying Australia has lots of volcanos that will explode anytime. I tot yesterday, all volcanos burst and I was "killed" by the volcano (without noticed since I slept without knowing what s going on earth). Anyway, as I was walking on the street, the surrounding was terrible, the weather, the temperature, the world is just gone crazy.

As I was walking passing thru the construction that were going on next door to my apartment. I suddenly felt (as a "dead" person) the world is disgusting. The people is killing the earth! Construction noise, construction dust, unlimited trucks on the street creating all the noise, air polution suddenly make me feel extremely uncomfortable.

I actually tot I was still "dead" when I walked on the street. It came to my mind, is this the world when dead people stay? But it suddenly came to me: but the real world is poluted (is just that the everything surround doesn't look RED), it is no doubt the weather that I experienced daily was unpredictable and fluctuating.

I knew, and everyone knew the world is sick but we still making it worst for our own selfishness. We destroy the forest to build new house. We said house is important for our next generation to stay comfortably. But as you cutting down the tree, you are destroying the world, you are making the world like a grave, you are shortening your next generation life expand! They lack of healthy environment, more polution. YOU ARE JUST BUILDING YOUR COMFY HOUSE ON A GRAVE!

Anyway, I was "awake" by the time I reached the hospital, knowing that I m still alive. But everyone in the room looking at me weirdly. Coz I was late, well, not late. I usually be there 8am but today I was there 9am. I guess, I have too much tot on the way to work.

Extraordinary long and boring story

Life is all about exploring. (random sentence)

I bumped into Sharon the other day, we see each other once/week. But we hardly hv the chance to chat. Sometimes I do tink is bcoz nobody like to talk to me. Anyway, I was surprised to know she still reading this!!! Thanx for all my readers' support. First of all, I need to thanx my parents for giving birth to me, thanx my siblings for supporting me silently. Thanx my teachers for educating me. Thanx my frenz for staying in touch with me.... (here goes my "tq" speech)

Back to topic, all I want to say is "Sharon likes my story too~" So, continue my career as story teller.

Story 1:
Long long time ago...(isn't that how a story begins?)... I waited for my boss to open the pharmacy door as usual. There is a guy suffering of terrible asthma (he is after Ventolin) but unfortunately NONE of the pharmacy open at 9am (except ours pharmacy --> 'according to the time written on the front door'). He keeps coughing and coughing (like old man) sound like he is going to cough out his lung (make me so worry, later have to clean up the 'bloody' lung left in front of our door - ha.ha. very funny -.-).

After coughing for a decade, and my boss is still not here yet, I started to run up and down the whole city just to look for an open pharmacy store (he can't walk anymore n jz squating in front of our store. His friend is exploring the whole city to look for an open store too).

One part of me 上刀山,下火海 just to find the Treasure- ventolin. Another part of my brain 上上下下worry my boss has already open the door when I ran away.

Thank God (yes, there is a God next door. In fact, two! Our pharmacy is actually located in between of two church and that Sunday is the day ppl go to church). Must be their praying and open the eye of God seeing me 不上又不下. So, I found the pharmacy that open at 10am. I bought the ventolin and gave to the person.

He still coughing but apparently he said he feels better and thanx me. He wanted to return me the money, but I dont hv change for him and he only got big note. So, I said just forget about it. His friend finally came bek from "treasuring" with "empty hand". Woohoo~ the winner of the game is RedBeanBun! *applause* "Tq, Tq. Tq my parents. Tq my siblings..." U probably doesnt want to read the following of my Tq speech again.

My boss is finally bek.

~从此，药房又过着平静又安详的日子~


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Godness, wat kinda story is tat. I haven't plot in the most important part of the story =_=" Actually while I was running up and down, I bumped into my boss's elder son. I told him the story (of course, is not in this length! summarised the story into 30 sec coz I was in the middle of competition. the situation is 十万火急). He seems to know why my boss is late and said mz b bcoz preparing food to feed the family. (But he didn't tell my boss about this)

Surprisingly, this week, my boss arrived the shop early. She told me the whole family went out for breakfast and she doesnt hv to cook for the family. Usually she cooks coz her son requested it. Apparently, she said might be bcoz her elder son told her younger son not to ask mum to cook. (If I am not mistaken, elder son tell the younger son about the ventolin case)

Ops~ sorry, little boss. I didn't meant to take away ur lovely home prepared meal. Feel really bad. Feel like taken away a warmth family gathering. Sometimes, let ur mum to do some work for you is a way of letting her to feel "NEEDED" and "IMPORTANT" to the family. So, gives ur loves one a task, an important one (but not too difficult, hopefully) -.- 让他感觉到他在你生命有着很重要&存在的价值.

She is BEK!

我不够认份 所以怕再为谁作出牺牲

爱要有天份 所以我始终学不会放任

我不够天真 不允许我傻傻的等

对自己残忍 多残忍 我要有分寸

* 我太过认真 所以才相信所谓的永恒

爱让人恍神 所以止不住不小心沉沦

我太负责任 不允许有太多悔恨

对自己坦诚 多坦诚 我自有分寸

** 我只是无辜的人 很需要叹气声

有一些文字的吻 只留给伤过的人

明知道有些问题 没有答案还是要问

原谅我 因为我就是 这样的女生

-Her voice is touching-
-The Music Video is sensational!-

誰將你眼眶染成一抹紅

誰用模糊語言輕易帶過承諾

幾度夢裡尋覓踏遍多少愁

敢問弦月缺少了什麼

少了那一夜短暫煙火

只能懷念剎那閃爍

少了那一次流星滑落

只能將心意淡沒

我說去亦難留亦難怎麼辦

有些話只能偷偷拿出來紀念遺憾

我說愛亦難恨亦難分作兩半

有些人注定和寂寞相伴

有些人注定只能作伴

-it always surprised me who read this blog-

we stayed together before
but we seperated

we go to the same hospital
but we at different departments

we even experience the similar incident
but we didn't tell each other

until we have time to chat


Am I time poor?
Or I m poor at time management?

Can u understand my English?

At work, nobody can understand my English. Most of the time, I just hand in the end result, they didn't know how I get thru the process. They didn't understand the way I explain it or what I am talking about.

At work, I cannot understand people English. I don't know what they talking about (at tea time or in a meeting). At tea time, I don't know why they laughing after a conversation. In a case study meeting, I don't know what they discussing about the treatment.

At uni, when I say stg to the class. The conversation doesn't last for long. Probably after I said it, then people just tok about other stuff or remained silence.

At uni, when ppl in a conversation. talking, laughin, being serious, being humour. Most of the time, I dont know what they are talking about. and I don't know how to join their conversation. I just follow the person's face or sensory expression.

At home, my family cannot understand my English. Saying that my English is too good trying to console me (Whilst the truth is actually my English is too poor and nobody can understand it. Just like what happen at work). They don't know what I am trying to express and what are my key msg.

At home, I cannot understand my family's conversation. I don't know what they are trying to say or express. Is so confusing. And I don't know what to reply them.

At date, he doesnt know what I am talking about and I don't know what he is saying. There is no mutual amongst our conversation. There is no common language going on.

Tell me, my communication is shit.

I hate the feeling of not being able to pass my msg thru. I hate the feeling of not being able to understand what people trying to say and I jz act as if I know. I hate the feeling of people doesn't want to talk to me, knowing that I don't know what they are talking about or just doesn't want to join me in the conversation. I hate being ignored and ignoring people.

Alright, enough of complain. Let's move on.

Is that how human being Communicate?

I wonder why:
When human being unhappy with something, they just keep quiet to the thing they don't like but complain about it to other?

I don't know where are we and where we are heading.

Food Intolerance = Fussy Eater

Telling people you are somewhat "food intolerance" is saying that you are a "fussy eater" in other words. It seems like there is a trend of having food intolerance in the population and maybe more common than dieting.

Simply, they just want to say "I am special, I am intolerance to some particular food"

"Is it because I don't like to talk to people or is it because people don't like to talk to me? Or both?" I asked.

~GoalS~ I will do ANYTHING to achieve them!

Today is a day full of information. Critical Reading session in the morning, articles were much more interesting than the previous sessions. As my supervisor said, maybe I am just not into animal study.

After the session, I went to a workshop hold by Uni Sydney Learning Centre. I always think these workshops are extremely useful but I just can't commit my time to attend. Now I am going to set priority to attend these workshops. I loves workshops as I am listening kinda learners. Instead of sitting in front of the computer all the time and came out with a paragraph of nothing. I learnt to structured my essay, I learnt how to plan to write an essay, I learnt what s analytical writing vs descriptive writing.

Then, I went to Australian Institute of Fitness and spoke to one of the career gurus, Tiffany. She was very helpful and explain things clearly for me even though is not our appointment and I took up her time till 5:15pm. To be honest, the whole point of me being there is to know how much is the course. So, she left the tuition fee information till the end. She make me to decide when to start the course. I don't think I can afford it for the time being. I spoke to my mum about it. She was kinda shock with the fees (but I already expecting it to be expensive anyway, so not much of surprise for me). And she actually didn;t know I want to pick up Personal Training course, she thought I am going to do a course in Marketing or Economic or Business. Oh dear.

After all these, I went to my favourite place-> GYM for the group fitness!!! It was real good workout as usual~

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By the end of the day, I got all my plans sorted for the time being:
1) Attend all classes hold by USYD learning centre to improve my English. I need to get the basic right before I go out and work.
2) Spend some money on Pronunciation course and maybe a Conversation course
3) Once I work full time when I graduate, I will aim to save the money forPersonal Training Course! I will definitely do it one day, for sure!!!

My mum always said me, "Your character is- extremely persistant (act like a cow but move like a tiger). Anything that you can't get it, you will do anything just to get it." Yup, tat's right! The more I can't get it, the more I want it. And I like the feeling of me achieving it with my WILL power!

Addition to yesterday post

You will only remember father's day when u become father.

Sunday = Beautiful Day = Happy Father's Day

Today is Australia's Father's Day! I wished a few of my customers HFD. They were really happy after I said tat! I like to see people with a smile after my greeting and service. That is an invisible motivation to keep me going! That s one of the reason I didn't want to leave this job (apart from I dont have any other paid job). I like standing around and moving around. Sitting in front of the computer for whole day jz not my life.

Today dance class cancel and I done my grocery shopping yesterday. So, I was absolutely free after work @ 1pm, I had my fav weekends lunch (Chicken Bun + Ice Blended Red Bean). Then, I wasn't sure what to do next (for the first time I feel so free and no stress). Weather was beautiful~ Didn't want to go back home >_<

So, I jz hang around city n went to book shop. The bookshop tat sell all the cheap books (I haven't been there for ages coz I always have things to do till late after work) Anyway, I had a great time there. I found a folding round chair that they provide to customers. It was very comfy~ I can fell asleep on the chair~ heavenly nice with the soothing music playing in the shop. (I will definitely buy the chair when I got extra money to spend!!) U must b asking, aren't I suppose to buy a book in a bookstore? well, sometimes getting stg out of expectation is much happier than getting what u expect. Is the same as my pharmacy assistant job, the motto is "Give people more than they expect and do so cheerfully!" On top of "Thank you" adding another "Happy Father's Day" make a lot different~

Community don't need to be "told" to eat healthy.
Community need to be "sold" to eat healthy.

Everyone can write a love letter BUT only Lawyer can do the bill of divorcement

Exercise + Nutrition

Story 1: Personal Trainer
I recently saw a personal trainner in Gym. She is pretty good, she talked me thru the whole exercise program. (By the way, she is singaporean, so, we spoke in Eng, Mandarin, Canto- coz her husband from HK)

I went to this session coz is free (I mean free coz I pay for the gym membership) After this session, I have to pay to see a PT. She is very friendly with some advertising of her job in the middle. Unfortunately, I just don't have the extra money for another one-to-one session with her. We talked a lot in an hour. She told me she wanted to be a PT coz she wants to help ppl to stay healthy. She wants to prove to other it is possible to loss weight and stay in shape. She once was overweight (but when she showed me the pic, I don't feel she is huge. I guess recently I have been seeing all the really BIG kids!) Anyway, I was kinda inspired by her enthusiastic (I can never spell this word).

Story 2: Research
The next day, one of the PhD student chat with me while we r in the train. I asked why she choose to do research. Her answer was quite straight forward and simple. She said "I like it, I like research" Then she added, "i think is not difficult to work out what u really like."

Suddenly, I was thinking *why is it so difficult for me to work out?*,
1) "what I like?"
2) "what I like to do?"
3) "is having a relationship consider as like?" (surprise or not relationship was the last thing I will think about)

As I am typing this, I can answer part of the question
1) I like my family and I want to be with them
2) I like moving around. I can't stand sitting whole day (even though I have been sitting whole day in front of the computer)
3) relationship? sorry, not now.

Conclusion:
I want to become a personal trainer and/or group fitness trainer + dietitian (specialise in obesity, and sport dietitian). Energy intake from food is always balanced out with energy expenditure by exercise + sustaining daily life. So, in order to achieve my goal, I will look for personal training course and next year will attend sport dietitian course as well. Hopefully, after attending the course, I will manage to consult people better. Actually, it make me think, I studied nutrition and dietetics but not many people consult me for advice. Even though I m willing to talk thru with them for free. I guess free stuff is never good yea?

The more I learn about consulting patient regarding nutrition, the more I realise my advices will not go anywhere to the patient. Even though I saw the PT, the exercise program she gave me, I haven't worked out the whole set yet. But I did went to gym n do other stuffs (as usual). I also will do some exercise that she taught me @ home. So, I guess is not too much of a failure hey.


Story after story:
Oh yea, not to forget, she did ask me have I tot of going research in future. I said, "yes, I would like to do PhD in future, I think is kinda 'cool' to have a "Dr." in front even though I know is hard work! It is absolutely can be stg to tink about to do in future, yes in future." (Obviously, this is very childish answer.)

Then she asked me y I like research? I realised "WHY" is a very popular question.
Y I studied nutrition? Y I want to do research? Y this Y that.
To be honest, I want to deal with food coz I want to get in control with my ownself. Unfortunately, that s an absolute failure -.-But I m working on it. One day, I want to be very confident like the PT saying "I want to prove to ppl, you can manage to stay healthy, happy and I m the best example!"

Graduation

Recently there are plenty of my high school mates graduation ceremonies going on back in Malaysia. And it just remind me that I will be finishing my course in ~13 weeks. Shocking?!

Another new pathway is waiting for me. What I am gonna be? What I wanna be? Where am I going? Today went back to Uni for one whole day seminar. There are a few lecturers talk about how to promote yourself. As we are going to graduate soon, looking for a job is certainly the next step. Well, that s my next step, not sure about others. (Never assume, never judge! I always forget about this rule)

Anyway, all the lectures were interesting, useful, and interactive. One of the lecturer was very young but very "pro". She impressed me. She said she went thru a lot to get to where she wants to be now. But who don't go thru shit? Anyway, she asked a very interesting question, "Are you looking for a job or a career?" It doesn't sound different to me at the first place. She added, "A job is just a job, a career is what you want to be and what you can continue for long term." Then, she asked "What you want to be in 5 years? What you want to achieve?" Again, this question gives a deep thought.
- > If you ask me this question a year before, I will answer, "continue with my study till I graduate. Any further than graduate, don't talk about it first, stay focus and get my master course complete." To me, it is just not practical to talk about what is gonna happen in 5 years when you don't even know what is gonna happen tomorrow.
- > If you ask me this question a week ago, I will answer, "wherever I can get a job with salary, that would be excellent!" I can hardly have any complain if I have a job, if I got a job in dietitian field, FABULOUS! I think that would be the "gold" from the sky fall in front of me. and Thank Godness! To me, doesn't matter which field you work in. Doesn't matter whether you get a dietitian job, you will get to learn something and build your CV no matter where you go.
- > Today, if you ask me the question again, I will say, "I don't know" And I am unsatisfy with this answer, of course. There is a contradictory in my mind and I don't like that. On one side of me saying "is ok, just continue with you pharmacy assistant job for the time being, at least you got a full time salary. And then you slowly find a job in dietitian area". On the other side of me saying, "are you gonna be a pharmacy assistant for the rest of your life. Or are you just going to satisfy with your dietitian job, if you get one?"

But she did make a good point. If you didn't plan what you want to be in 5 years, then where are you heading? Is like sailing in the middle of ocean, without the knowing where is the edge, without any control of where to go, and just let the wind blow to wherever it feels like.

Where I want to go? What I want to be? What I like about dietitian? Which part of dietitian? Which areas I want to specialist in? Why I want to be a dietitian? Why I like that specific area/field of dietetics? Do I just want to be a normal dietitian for the rest of my life?

I always get frustrated when people ask me about me.
-> Can you tell me about yourself? (Especially in Facebook and Friendster. There is a section of "About me" that I never know how to answer.)
-> Can you tell me what are your strengths and weakness?
-> Can you tell me what makes you different from others?

So, is time to get some deep tot going on before I got chuck into the middle of ocean.

Ignored

Recently I have been ignoring my family and bf. Not recently, I think since I came back Sydney. Don't ask me why, if I know why, I wouldn't have typing this post. My mum just phoned and my replied was "good" "ok" "o" She asked open questions and I answered with closed questions. Not sure if it is because I am holding an ice cream. This doesn't mean I am eating and I can't talk. There is another reason of me ignoring my closest when I am eating even though I am full. Makes any sense? Let me explain.

I remembered one of the psycho specialists said there is a link of one's bad behaviour and indirect self-punishment. This is the gold answer that I have been searching ages for my unfriendly behaviour and terrible attitute.

Let me tell you a case study of myself.

Today, I went to a public lecture given by my supervisors and before I left, I did not say 'Goodbye' to any of my supervisors. And my friend told me I should hv talk to them after the lecture. But I replied "nvm, I will see them tomorrow anyway". From that moment, I feel bad, really bad and sorry for leaving my supervisors without telling them. This feeling become worst after I was reminded by my friend that I left without notice. I feel really impolite. On the way back home, I kept thinking what my supervisors will think about my attitute. As you would have know, I very care of how people think about me especially those that are important to me.

This guilty feeling keep bothering me and very often when I feel uncomfortable, I will eat non-stop. This is called binge eating. Once I arrived home, I ate whole lots of food and even though I am full, I still keep eating. Obviously after binging this doesn't make me feel better. In fact, worst! Plus, I wasn't able to go exercise today due to came back late and spent all day in office.

I feel stupid, idiot and unable to self-control. I hate myself coz of my unhealthy binging, my bad behaviour, my impoliteness. At this time, my mum phoned, I did not tell her anything about this. I ignored all her questions. I turned down her concern on me. I hurt her indirectly. By doing this to mum, I feel I am the worst, terrible, horrible person in the world!

So, now it makes sense. No? Let me explain using the following flow chart:
Everytime I am unsatisfy with my bad behaviour -> I will binge -> I feel bad about binge BUT I can't express my anger -> So, I ignored my closest -> makes me feel even down and a terrible person and I am the worst for hurting my closest -> This is a psycho punishment I gave to myself by hurting my mind and making myself feel guilty, worst, and horrible about own.

In simple term, this is call self-mental-abuse.

Another interesting customers

Everyday I work in the pharmacy, I always get to meet very 'interesting' people.

Annonymous 1:
She came in and I said Good Morning, as usual. She replied "it is morning", a very unusual answer.
Then, she asked for two 50cents change with $1 after a long conversation with nil content.
So, in the end, I changed for her. Before she left, she said "good girl". I did not say anything. And she said again "good girl".
Then, suddenly I woke up and replied "Thank you" "sorry" (after 20 secs she spoke to me)
And she looked at me as if I did stg wrong "tq and sorry?"
(Actually I said sorry is becoz I unintentially ignored her at the first place for praising me as good girl)
Then she gave me some long stories of how she tinks about us and how she feels about us previously and how she didn't like us, chinese. She keep saying "I m getting used to u all, chinese ppl" "I m getting used to it"
I jz kindly smile and nodding my head listening to her long long story thinking why is she still here? My window is still waiting for me to clean.

Annonymous 2:
Someone came in asked for some pain killer and "do you hv coke"? (Actually asking do u have coke is better than do you hv cig? Excuse me, this is pharmacy, is a place promoting health. Asking do u hv cig is the same as asking the staff in hospital, can I smoke in the ward?) Anyway, don go off to other story. So, I replied, "No, we don't hv coke" And I added "It is unhealthy" Then he said, "I am asking for diet coke." "Diet is not good too, artificial sweeteners not good for us" "coz I m dietitian tat s y I said tat" (But actually I drank diet coke all the time). So, he wasn't quite happy with my ans and he said "Ok, so u r dietitian, can u ans a simple question with a short ans?" "Do you know how to know whether the 0 yr old kid is eating good? having enough nutrient" So, I replied "We always recommend mum to breastfeed the baby till 6 mo" Obviously he doesn't like my ans. "This is not the ans, how do u noe whether he got enuff nutrient. Come on, short and simple!" He raised his voice. He is certainly challenging me. "Just say u don't know!" Oh well, so I said "I don't know". "U just hv to look at the stool! The stool tell u everything!"
-Another way of interpreting tis story is, "U r telling me shit n Shit tells u everything!"

exhausted

extremely tired (surprise or not i still hv the energy to type a blog coz i m waiting for bath room)

Beginning of the day, I spoke a lot. Talked a lot with customers. By the end of the day, I m almost dead. My batteries runs out.

Around 7pm, I got one customer tat was very unhappy with my hair keep dropping. He is extremely annoyed by my hair. To be honest, I hv put on a lot of weight since I go back msia and I haven been to gym for ages. So, the only thing I m satisfy is my hair. His word and actions really make me feel very very @!#$%^ Unfortunately, he is the boss, customer is always ur boss. So, I jz bare with him. Plus he is old. I can't be bothered to argue with him. -Smile- be professional even I m not.

My mum loves my story. So, I m gonna tell story.

Story 1:
One of my very nice customer rang and order some medications. He and his wife are chinese herb doctor. I always deliver stuff to their place. They are extremely nice old couple. I sent new year card for them before and they even give me a box of new year biscuit. Today I send parcel to their place, noticed the doctor wasn't in d clinic. Ask his wife and I was told he admitted to hospital and seperate him from the outside world. He got fever n coughing terrible. He was treated as if he has swine flu. But I can imagine that might be the case. His wife even got a bit of coughing. Nancy was kinda worry, she asked me to wash my hand as soon as I got back -.-I feel really bad for him and his wife. Coz his wife have to take care of the clinic, take care of him, and take care of herself. Really hope both of them will get thru it. They are really friendly ppl and nice to us (Pharmacy's staffs).

-看着她那慈祥的眼睛，可是背后的她其实是那么的疲惫-
为了他人，往往你会变得更坚强

Story 2:
Today I met one of my regular customers (well, to b more accurate, I shl say, "used to be" one of the regular customer coz I actually haven't seen her quite awhile) The moment I saw her, I was shocked, coz she appeared to be very old and weak compare to the time I saw her last time (was during Chinese New Year). After she left, I asked Nancy (my boss) is anything going wrong with her? Coz she jz look so old and tired and unhappy. She used to be very talkative. Nancy told me she was diagnosed with cancer and she tinks nobody care about it. She wants to live longer but her sons and daughter sounds like not very supportive for her to go on treatment. I recon is coz they doesn't want her to suffer more. I jz feel so sorry for her.

-她的生命变得那么的无奈-
为何生命是如此的脆弱。

time to go shower

What is the life I want to live?

Who knows?

This morning I woke up and the first question came to me is, What is the purpose of my life?
Then the questions keep flowing thru me: What am I doing? Where am I going? Why am I doing this? Am I satisfy or happy with my current life?

Well, when I am questioning "Am I satisfy or happy with my current life?" which means I am definitely not. Even though I know that life is not perfect. I experienced the worst time where I had to go thru all the medical + mental issue. At that time, I wish my life could be simplier. Now, I am having a simple of nothing much. Nothing much happened in a day: no pain and no gain. No sadness, no happiness. My emotion is just like a blank paper.

So, WHAT I WANT?

Ever since the day I left home, I know there is no way back. Pls don't question me why do I choose the difficult road. Or is there a easy way?

Ideal life V.S. Real life

What is a normal life? Am I having a normal life?

Too many question without an answer.
Make it worse.

Anyway, I think a life with "no pain and no gain" is working fine with me now. I know, when I found happiness, sadness is followed at the back very closely. Oh well, "no emotion", I guess is the best.

Thank you for reading. Sorry for all the miserable sentences and questions.
I think I found what I after, maybe?

Money

My mum said: "if the money can solve a prob, then is not a prob"

Story 1:
I lost $2 in market n I found $0.05 in my pocket.
How s tat sound? U like the deal?

Story 2:
On Sunday, I worked in the Pharmacy for 10 hours without my boss. There is a customer came in and bought a hearing battery (~$6). Before they left (they are coupled), the girl told the boy to test the hearing aids' battery. Apparently, the boy doesnt want. He has a very profound hearing prob and the hearing aid he is wearing apparently is low in battery and cant hear properly. Anyway, the girl came back after 30 mins, and said the batteries aren't working. But we don't do exchange or refund. That s just our shop pharmacy. She scream scream and scream non stop and almost cried. But in the shop, non of the staff is louder than her (if my boss is here, he is really strict and loud). In Australia, usually in a big supermarket, they do refund. At the end, I can't stand anymore, she jz screaming and scolding non-stop and I can feel her stress. I can see that coz of her partner, she is having all the stress. So, I took out my wallet and buy another one from our shelf and gave her a new one. To me, is just a $6 thing. Y want to make so much trouble to everyone? Staffs not sure wat to do. Other customers came in and see the whole show and have to disturb my boss from having their holiday. If $6 can stop the drama, den is worth it.

Obviously, she stopped screaming and scolding. She thanks us in the end, she almost cry not bcoz of angry but coz of touch. After all tat, she said she worked as sales assistant as well and she had experience all the customers throwing all the anger on her and she hates doing to us.

Sunday, everyone will be stress to go back to work again. Stress being scold by boss, customers, stress making mistakes etc. Oh well, it just make me wonder, who create the stress? And the power of $

Panadol

Good day ladies and gentlemen, today I m going to tell you a story, the title is The Magic of Panadol.

Once upon a time, there was a big girl staying alone in a lonely planet. One day, she was attacked by unknown virus and bacteria. There was no one in the island was able to help her. She was in miserable, upset, and frustrated. She felt that s the end of her life. Just before, she is trying to give up, she saw a box of white pill shinning.

She get closer to it and looked at the box labelled which said "Panadol". She has never try it before because she was told not to put anything into mouth that you don't know. However, she thought she was going to die anyway, so, there is no harm putting more poison into her body. Initially, she start approaching it gradually, she took one and swallow. After a while, she found no different but her headache say good bye to her for a moment after she had the pill. So, she thought, "Oh Wow, I found a magic pill!" Even it was just a short relieve, she was surprise with that. She wasn't sure is it because of the pill or is it because she slept more.

Anyway, she didn't straight get into the pill. She just left it there after the incidence. Unfortunately, her headache comes back and attacked her again, this time not only headache, she felt the whole body just not working. No matter how she try to sleep, she just can't go into sleep. So, she is desperate, she doesn't want to die.... yet. But somehow she felt depressed and wish to let it go jz as it is. But in the end, she go back to the pill that she found the other day. Her instinct just told her to take 2 pills at once and she took it. Just as her instinct told. She knows there is no more solution she can hope for already. Panadol is just the only last resort. So, after 6 hours, when she woke up, she took another 2 pills again. She don't know why she is taking so many. But since there is nothing she can do, she just try everything on.


At the end, after taking 6 pills, she is happily every after.

That is the end of my story. This story tell us: If it doesn't work, then it doesn't work. If it get worse, then is just make her life shorter. However, if it works, then miracle happen! Thank you.

Loser

U lose to a TV, loser!

Top 5 Foods for Better Mood

1) Mung Beans

2) High Carbohydrate Food + Low GI (cereal, basmathi rice, grain bread)- not to hv too much coz it might increase ur weight!!

3) Asparagus

4) Tofu

5) Banana- the best choice to improve ur mood! =)

So, let's make a chicken or turkey salad with Mung Beans and Asparagus. Tofu stir fry with rice. and Banana for dessert~

Welcome

Actually I have to say I am a very lucky student to get into this Department working with the team. My research project is about Dietary Intervention in Improving Insulin Sensitivity in Overweight/obese Adolescent.

All the kids I see are at risk of developing Diabetes at this young age due to many reasons. Therefore, we are trying to help them modified their lifestyle (diet, exercise) to reduce their weight and hopefully this will improve their insulin sensitivity and prevent them from getting Diabetes.

My research lab is located in well-known Children Hospital Westmead (CHW)- picture showed the logo of the hospital. Many kids from different states were sent here by helicopter to see the specialist. All the professionals worked here are very P.R.O!!! extremely confident. plus very knowledge! It is a great place for my student placement.

Now let's talk about my supervisor, Dr Sarah Garnett. She is one of the very very nice, easy going, friendly lady that I have ever met. She reminds me of my supervisor in my previous clinical placement Anne Swain. They both very good in giving positive reinforcement and very welcome ppl. I can feel quite relax when I m with them. They gave me a warmth welcome and always willing to help me, give me opportunity etc. Sarah introduced me to every single person in the Research Department including the head of the department. To be honest, that s very great, because the research department is extra ordinary huge! Many many ppl... Sarah is a very well-known researcher, she is very very good in writting and communicating. She is very famous in the Department, she is one the top in the department, everybody walk pass her will have some pro Qs to ask her or they will chat with her (this show how everyone love her so much). She is very efficient and able to attend at least one meeting a day but still get her job done. She is the only one in the office stay for after hour and come early (so I can stay longer sometimes) =P

My project's team members also very willing to help me and teach me every single thing patiently. They are extremely organised and all very nice ppl. =) Sometimes just make me feel so not want to leave the office.

第二天

下雨了。
不是天空，
是我的眼睛。
大概是我的脑袋意识到我的眼睛肮脏了。
是时候大扫除了。
让我的眼睛过一过水
清洗一下。

看的东西也比较清晰。
看到了，
其实，

这里只有自救。

Start again

Today is the first day of university for my last semester of Nutrition and Dietetics course. Excited to see everyone is back. today is more or less like an intro to our research project assignment. After the intro, some of us went out for lunch. I talked to most of the ppl in the class today. I talked to Sharon the whole day.
** one of my high school fren said I become more talkative recently. and asked what changed me? I didn't change to a brand new sheau kang. I jz try to change back to the old me back in high school, where i used to be so talkative

Went to Sharon's house after lunch. Albert join the trip too. Oh yea, not to forget to mention we bought bubble tea after lunch. Played with Momo and Eski for the whole afternoon. Great to see Momo again, still playful like last time. And nice to meet Eski, a shy little boy who loves his food. Sharon sent me home to burwood and she offered me to stay together. To be honest, I do feel tempted to go back with her. I won't feel the loneliness at her place even though we don't communicate at home. Also, her house wasn't that messy as here especially the toilet. And of course the rent is cheaper.

At the end, I can't really make any decision but I guess I will stay at where I am for the time being. I do appreciate Sharon willing to stay with me again. However, moving around is not as easy as it sound. Plus, the semester start already. I have lots to work on, especially my writting skill. Otherwise, will be in big trouble. Sharon did point out that if I move over, it will just 3-4 months time. is it worth it to move around and all the hassle just for the short period? I think I will stay here and visit her occasionally. Oh yea, we are in the same hospital doing research so, will hv more chance to meet up and chat.


Everything, there are pros and cons. That's why life is all about making decision. And prioritise is the key in making decision. And as long as we don't feel any regret at the time fo making the decision. Even after we made the decision and we then realise it wasn't the best choice, we just have to remind ourself, we did not regret at the time of making decision, so, why now we would?
Let's learn to accept the end result of ur decision with a positive thinking, of course.

Lowering Blood Pressure

Reducing sodium intake isn't the only way to lower blood pressure- increasing your potassium intake also does wonders. The reseachers found that increasing potassium intake while at the same time reducing sodium intake is more effective at lowering blood pressure than either on its own. You can boost ur potassium intake by including more bananas, tomatoes, potatoes, low fat dairy, and fish in your diet.

雨天

我离开Sydney前，天天下雨。
据说，我离开Sydney的那一个月没有下雨了。
我回来后，Sydney又开始下雨了。


我和水太有缘分了。
很可惜，我不喜欢雨天。

既然，我改变不了天气，就尝试改变我的心情吧。
懒洋洋的，也不错~

1st Day of Working - 血光之兴

Finally start working as usual. Initially was kinda afraid to start working but on the way to work, I met one of our regular customer and we talked happily, So, it gets me started to warm up and get ready for work.

My bossES (two of them) welcomed me back warmly :) their smile and welcome words just make me relieve. Then, my work"mate", she doesn't want to go back to uni too (same as me). I am afraid to go back, maybe coz I am not used to study life. Anyway, I know I will get through it, just like how I walked into my pharmacy and feel welcome.

I cut myself during work, very clever *clap clap clap* how I did it? easy, just scratch ur hand over the cellofin tape's stand. B.L.E.E.D. Stupid right. *hurray* lets celebrate Sheau Kang back to work with red colour~ However, there is no 花圈，only bandage to wrap over.

Plus, another present from my bosses- a big bag of 金桔 (祝你：新年快乐，万事如意）
=D

Oh yea, I heard a news from my high school fren, he is in Sydney working now! Don't know why, just simply feel excited :) Welcome to Sydney, mate!

A letter or a report?

Arrived Sydney today. My seat got changed 3 times! (Nil comment.) At least I got a side seat. First thing I did in Sydney -> Go to bank.
First thing I did at home -> Slept the whole day.

When I woke up, I came across to this email from high school friend (we haven't been in contact for a long time). So, I take the letter seriously and answered carefully. This is a good letter, when you have not been in contact with someone else for a long time and doesn't know how to start a conversation.

I am writting it here and hopefully will have some respond from my friends. Some simple questions let me know how have you been. I still remember you, still concern about you. Or you can remind me, we were once a good friend and in the future too =D

问卷游戏规则：看完别人的问卷后，把所有的答案改成你自己的，然后寄给你认识的人，包括寄这封信给你的人。这个理论要说的是,你将了解你的朋友更多~~~~把邮件也寄回你的寄件人。你永远不知道你会从中学到些什么。
有空的话记得回复 ......
> 开始

= 你的名字: xiao kang
= 现在几点: 5:07pm= 谁寄给你：Pei Ann
=你现在正在听什么歌: 没有如果- Fish
= 在回答这封信前你吃过什么: lasagna + choc milk= 在回答这封信前你在做什么: sleep= 你现在在哪里: sydney
= 现在的天气如何: 艳阳高照
= 上一次吹蜡烛的数目: 5? Maybe
= 你通常吹熄这些蜡烛的日期: Mid June
= 你们家养过什么动物: 鱼，鸟，狗，老鼠，兔子，乌龟
= 有写部落吗: http://redbeankanglife.blogspot.com/
= 星座: 双子
= 你有纹身吗: 没有= 有打几个耳洞: 2
= 目前有男/女友吗: 有
= 认为自己花心吗: 很花心
= 喝过酒吗:有。
= 喝醉的糗事: 没有，因为少喝
= 曾经出过车祸吗: 没有，因为少驾
= 喜欢目前的生活吗: 不错
= 不爱吃的东西: 肥肉，油腻的食物= 喜欢吃的东西:寿司，甜食
= 喜欢喝什么: mocha
= 最喜欢的数字: 3
= 喜欢看哪一种电影类型: 搞笑,校园
= 喜欢的卡通人物:日本漂亮的漫画女主角
= 喜欢的品牌 : 冒牌= 最怀念的日子: 与家人相处的日子= 伤心的经验: 忘了如何与人分享
= 最喜欢星期几: 星期五
= 最喜欢的季节: 只要不太冷或太热，不要雨季
= 喜欢的花:没有特别留意，有花花草草都喜欢
= 喜欢的运动: 可以流汗的都喜欢
= 喜欢的冰淇淋类型: 都喜欢
= 最怕什么:自己的坏脾气
= 如果有来世: 不要有烦恼
= 最讨厌的事: 自己乱发脾气
= 喜欢的事: 走来走去，跳来跳去，跑来跑去
= 专长的事: 努力的去做被分配的工作
= 想做什么职业 :营养师+生意人
= 你们家住几楼: 双层排屋 （马来西亚）；Condo (Sydney)= 觉得自己十年后会在哪里: 澳洲
= 无聊的时候你大多会做些什么: 运动，看戏，上网，走街，看书，哭泣
= 目前最恼人的事: 刚离开家人，还没适应过来
= 希望的事: 快乐，没有坏脾气，节制的吃，毕业，找到工作，成功申请澳洲永久居民
= 觉得同性恋如何: 不是很可以接受= 如果有人误会你: 会觉得很无辜，会忍不住哭
= 想过要怎么对付你讨厌的人吗:到处唱他
= 通常几点上床睡觉: 12am
= 你觉得谁会先回这封信:家人
= 你觉得谁是最不可能回复的人: 不得空的人
= 你现在最想见的人: 家人
= 你想在几岁结婚: 不想
= 有想过自杀吗: 有
= 最希望谁回信: 看到这封信的人
= 想和收信者说的话是：ELO, 你还好吗？
= 对这封信息的感想:很感动受到这封信。

=报告完毕=

Sugar Sugar Sugar

What is sugar? Sugar is a form of Carbohydrate 淡水化合物

Why do we use sugar? Sugar provide energy, taste, colour, thickness, and used as preservative
Sugar intake from where? Majority from natural food and processed food (such as fruits, rice, pasta, cereal, biscuits, and dairy products) and minority from added refined sugar to drinks, and sweets that has only little nutritious value.

How much sugar to take?
- Man (30-60yo; 80kg) can consume 24-32 teaspoons/day
- Woman (30-60yo; 65kg) can consume 19-25 teaspoons/day
12g sugar=3 teaspoons

Some sugar is better than other? Yup, there is tool called Glycaemic Index (GI) which use to measure how the sugar in different food affect body blood glucose.
The rule of thumb is- The lower the number, the better.
Low GI (<50)>70) foods raise and falls our blood glucose rapidly and sharply. Thus, our blood glucose will shoot high up after consuming High GI food. And of course, we will feel hungry soon after. (eg. white rice, white breads, extruded cereals, baked potato, watermelon, refined table sugar)

The question is:
Rate the following drinks according to their sugar content.
1) A can of coke; 2) A cup of fresh squeze Orange juice; 3) Sport drinks

The answer is:
1) A cup of fresh squeze orange juice contained 10.5 teaspoons of sugar! (So, you still think fresh juice is good?)
2) A can of coke contained 10 teaspoons of sugar!
3) A cup of sport drinks contained 9 teaspoons of sugar! (that's why u need it to boost your energy for activities)

家家有本难念的经;狗狗也有本难念的经

我家里的人都伤了.
家里的狗狗也伤了.

我家有四只狗：
两只狗痞了。
一只狗聋了。
另一只是过动儿。

我家现在有五个人：
我爸，我弟都扭到脚了。（他们都肖狗）
我妹耳朵常常听不到。
我是过动儿，永远坐不静。

还有一位,我妈？
我妈昨天被狗咬

-_-

失去了才懂得珍惜

我就是那么的讨人厌.
没有的时候就埋怨.
得到了又不懂得珍惜.

他提醒了我,
要懂得珍惜,
要不然,
失去了又后悔了.

1 U, the shopping mall...

This is what we did in 1 Utama Shopping Centre.

We were lucky to get a parking so soon, my friend has to wait for 30 minutes for a car park. So, I walked here and there. I did enjoy myself. Even though I didn't buy anything, but I just enjoy window shopping. That s what I always do in Australia. My parents just don't understand my feeling, they think is a waste of time. I can understand why they don't understand my feeling. Anyway, we had doughnut afternoon tea + taiwan 小吃.

Today my mum got bitten by our dog. (I am gonna kill the dog, stupid old dog!) My sister said my mum has the dog's symptoms already -_-" Ah ma appears tired today, but I guess she will get better soon. She had an injection to prevent the poison from spreading.

Interesting Sunday huh~

CHILI for Weight Loss?

CHILLI is so common in our daily meals (1/3 of world's population consume chilli daily). Chilli is a native fiery fruit of South America.

Chilli is packed of vitamin C, fibre, potassium and some B group vitamins. Especially the capsaicin component in chilli plays a major role for many health benefits.

Capsaicin is thought to:
1) Ease cold & Flu. Capsaicin opens the nasal passages, easing congestion. Also, vitamin C in chilli is useful for cold prevention.
2) Assist weight loss. Capsaicin increase metabolic rate which help to burn calories.
3) Reduce cholesterol
4) Treatment for high blood pressure
5) Relieve arthritis pain via topical cream. Capsaicin has an anti-inflammatory effect.
6) Possibly kill cancer cells. (still in investigation)

Capsaicin stimulate the tongue sensor of heat and pain, tricking the brain to think the tongue is on fire. When chilli is too hot, DRINK milk, NOT water. This is because the casein in milk (or other dairy products) will strip the capsaicin from the tongue.

The hottest part of chilli is the seeds and the flesh around the seeds. The flesh has the greatest concentration of the capsaicin.The "King Cobra Chilli" (or Naga Jolokia) origin from India is rated as the hottest chilli in the world (as shown in the picture above).

Reference:
SBS Food Investigators

前天死火，昨天没油，今天爆胎，明天？

The day before, my mum’s ex-WAJA wasn’t working properly. It broke down in the middle of the road. It was extremely dangerous! And apparently, it has been like that for half a year but my mum unwilling to change the car this year! Oh my Godness, if it wasn’t us who persuade her to get her car change, I guess my mum and my bro life is in danger! So, she changed her WAJA to MYVI.

Yesterday, we went to watch my bro basketball match and my mum forgot to refill the fuel for her new MYVI. (MYVI always need to refill fuel- every 3 days!) Oh well, of course, my mum start to complain about her MYVI. Excuse me, mum, there is no such things call P.E.R.F.E.C.T. The main point is to look at the good thing about MYVI not the ugly. Anyway, we were exceptionally scared that the new car will break down again! As we weren’t with our dad and is already late at night, my mum can’t really see in the dark!! Plus the area is new to us and we still far far away from our house~ Thank God, after 20 minutes drive, our life saver, BHP fuel station appears!! However, things don’t always go easy for us, especially CAR! After we refill, the fuel signal doesn’t goes up to the top and still remain at the bottom and the fuel signal still keep blinking non-stop. OMG!!!! I checked the receipt and indicated we did really refill for sure. Then, stupid me thought is because the fuel station is out of fuel (coz is late at night) but still charge us!! Obviously, this is not gonna to happen -.- is just my imagination was too good~ yea right… Anyway, in the end, the fuel signal took about 20 minutes to back to normal. Phew~ (even slower than my sister and the turtle in my backyard.

Today, we went to watch Harry Potter, again at night. By the time, we finished the movie is already 12am. Just a short comment about the movie- I like the movie. (I m not a good journalist, if I gave such a comment in newspaper, I got fired the next day for sure.) Oh well, plus another sentence of comment- I got shock once, everyone in the cinema jump slightly off the chair for one scene). Anyway, back to our topic, on the way back, just a short distance from Jusco, but our car still want to give us trouble~!!! So, my dad’s car’s TAYAR PUNCIT!!!! =_= this is seriously dangerous, it puncit until the car has to rely on the wheel ring to drive -.- The sound was scary, the car was very unbalanced! (of course!) Stupid me, again, go over to my sister and brother side (because is the wheel near me that is break down) Even though I knew this will not work -_- The short distance from Jusco to our house took about 2 hours. We stopped at Shell station (Fuel station is always our life saver~) Then, we don’t know how to get the spare wheel out of the car, it took us ages to figure it, plus is dark, we have to rely on mobile phone’s light. In the end, we failed to get the spare wheel out. Is the car specialist that we knew got it out for us, and of course a service charge of RM50. Sigh, that is not the end of the story, on the way back from the fuel station, the car makes the noise of *cling cling cling* non-stop!! So, we thought (well, is I thought) the wheel is gonna row out coz the nut is not screw properly?? At last, we arrived home safely. Nobody get hurt, is considered s.a.f.e. The reason of car making those noises is because the person who services our car did not keep the tool properly.

So, whenever you can’t really do anything and you are in trouble, the only thing you can rely on is God. =_=” (At least, that is what I always do)